You ever have one of those days where your mind feels like it has 57 browser tabs open, everything running slow, random music playing from who-knows-where… and you’re just trying to remember what you forgot?

Deadlines.
Messages.
Notifications.
Things you meant to do.
Things you forgot to do.
Things you’re avoiding doing.

That was me a little while ago.
My brain was loud.
My schedule was full.
And I felt that familiar pressure building in my chest — the “I’m doing too much and not doing enough” kind of pressure that makes it hard to even breathe.

So I did what I’ve been doing whenever life gets like that:
I grabbed my AirPods, walked to the park near my house, and started the loop.

Five kilometers of fresh air.
Movement.
Breeze.
Scenery.
The whole reset package.

Usually I put on a shiur, podcast, or audiobook just to quiet the inner noise.
Even a little bit helps — like clearing out half the tabs so the computer stops lagging.

That’s what I planned to do.
I turned on a shiur and started walking.

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The Moment Everything Shifted

Something I’ve been doing for years now is talking to Hashem in these little micro-conversations throughout the day.

A thank You here.
A “Please help me with this” there.
A short whisper before I start a task.
A quick acknowledgement when something unexpected happens.

Nothing fancy.
Nothing dramatic.
Just small, honest moments that make Hashem feel close — real, present, part of the fabric of the day.

So on that walk, just a few minutes in, I paused the shiur and said:
“Hashem… my head is a mess today. Please help me clear it. Help me get organized.”

That’s all I meant to say.
But what happened next… I wasn’t ready for.

I started explaining why my head felt messy.
What I was worried about.
What I was juggling.
What was weighing on my heart.

Then I started listing everything out, one thing at a time, in detail.

Deadlines.
Responsibilities.
Fears.
Questions.
Decisions.

Before I even realized what was happening…
…I wasn’t “saying a quick thing.”
I was having a full-blown conversation with Hashem.

I looked down at my watch and I was already 3 km into the walk — and the shiur was still paused.
I hadn’t even noticed.

Just me.
Hashem.
The path.
And a stream of words finally unclogging something inside.

My AirPods were still in, so anyone watching probably assumed I was just talking on the phone — completely normal these days with Bluetooth everything.

Gone are the old days when someone would step into a phone booth, pick up the receiver, and pretend to talk to someone just to daven Mincha in public without looking crazy.

Now you can walk around talking to Hashem and people don’t even blink.

But this walk was different.

I’ve spoken to Hashem before… but this time, something clicked open.

The words weren’t forced.
They were flowing.

I wasn’t just talking.
I was being heard.

And I felt — actually felt — like Hashem was an active part of the conversation.

Ideas started popping into my head.
New angles.
Tiny flashes of clarity.
Solutions I hadn’t considered.

And without even thinking, I found myself saying:
“Wow… that’s a great idea. Thank You.”

As if Hashem had literally just suggested it.
Because He did.

Some conversations don’t change the situation.
They change you.

And right there, in the middle of that park loop, I remembered a truth that has carried me through some of the hardest seasons of my life:

Bitachon doesn’t start with knowing.
It starts with talking.

“He’emanti ki adaber,” David HaMelech says — I believed because I spoke.

Not the other way around.

We don’t speak to Hashem because we believe.
We believe because we speak.

Because talking to Someone who doesn’t exist would be ridiculous.
Because bringing Hashem into the details of your inner world forces your heart to catch up with the truth your soul already knows.

Talking creates connection.
Connection creates trust.
And trust — that’s bitachon.

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So… What Exactly Is Hitbodedut?

There’s an idea made famous by the followers of Rav Nachman of Breslov: hitbodedut.

Alone time with Hashem.
Unstructured.
Unfiltered.
Unscripted.
Just you and your Creator.

It can look like:

• a walk in a forest
• sitting on a bench
• talking in your car
• whispering while you wash dishes
• or just stepping outside for five minutes

For a long time, I thought it was… unnecessary.

“I don’t have time for that.”
“I already daven three times a day.”
“I say brachot.”
“I start with Modeh Ani.”
“I end with Shema.”
“I’m talking to Hashem all day already — why do I need this too?”

But here’s the thing:

Davening, brachot, Shema, Modeh Ani — they’re powerful.
They’re essential.
They’re the backbone of Jewish life.

But they’re also structured.
Scripted.
Inherited.
The things we were told to say.

Hitbodedut is the opposite.

It’s the cup of coffee with your Father just because.
Not because it’s on the schedule.
Not because you have to.
But because you want to.

Imagine your father telling you he wants to speak to you every morning and night.
Those conversations matter.
They build relationship.

But imagine the joy when you just show up midday — not out of obligation, not out of expectation — simply because you wanted to connect.

That’s hitbodedut.
Not formal.
Not framed.
Just real.

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Yaakov Avinu’s Sword and Bow

When Yaakov Avinu gave Shechem to Yosef, he described how he acquired it with his charbi v’kashti — his sword and his bow.

Onkelos translates:

“Tzeloti u’bevoti.”
Prayers and supplications.

The structured tefillah — the siddur, the brachot, the Shema — that’s the sword.
Sharp.
Precise.
Powerful.

But the talking-from-the-heart moments?
The hitbodedut, the walking with Hashem, the whispering your fears, your questions, your dreams?

That’s the bow.

And a bow hits targets from far, far away.

Some things in life need the structure of the sword.
But some breakthroughs only come from the bow.

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Start Small. Let It Grow.

I didn’t begin with full conversations.
For years, I just said little things:

“Thank You, Hashem.”
“Please help me with this.”
“I’m overwhelmed.”
“I don’t know what to do — guide me.”
“Help me make the right decision.”
“Give me clarity.”

Those small moments opened the door for bigger ones.
And those bigger ones opened the door for a relationship that honestly… changed my life.

Now, I walk that 5 km loop in the park near my house and the conversation often becomes a good part of the whole walk.

And every single time — without exception — I finish calmer, clearer, and more aligned than I started.

Funny enough, the days I think I “don’t have time” for hitbodedut…

…are exactly the days I need it most.

And somehow, the days I talk to Hashem?
They end up smoother.
More productive.
More grounded.
More blessed.

It’s almost like when you bring Hashem in as your partner, He helps you run the business of your day.

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The Simple Step You Can Start Today

Let’s keep this practical:

Action Step:
Take a 5-minute walk today.
Put in AirPods if you want it to look like you’re on the phone.
And just talk to Hashem.

Tell Him what’s on your mind.
Tell Him what’s weighing on you.
Tell Him what you’re grateful for.
Tell Him where you need help.
Tell Him what you’re afraid of.

Begin the conversation.

You don’t need 5 km.
You don’t need a forest.
You don’t need an hour.

You just need to start.

Because once you open that door, something shifts.
Inside you.
Around you.
For you.

And Hashem — your Father, your Friend, your Partner — is already listening.

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If This Spoke to You…

If something in this resonated — if it made you feel a little more grounded, a little more seen, a little more connected — then you should know this:

What you just experienced is only the beginning.

What you did on that walk — speaking to Hashem honestly, naturally, in your own words — that’s the heart of Day 1 of my upcoming course, 7 Days to Unshakable Bitachon, launching this December.

But Day 1 is just the doorway.

Inside the course, we go deeper into the parts of Bitachon most people never learn — the parts that make trust something you can build, not something you just hope for.

We explore the Torah behind it, the psychology behind it, the stories, the practices, and the simple micro-habits that quietly reshape the way you think, feel, and respond to daily life.

Nothing overwhelming.
Nothing heavy.
Just clear, practical steps that start to shift your inner world.

And I’ll tell you this honestly:
There are pieces inside this experience that I’ve never shared publicly — ideas and practices that shifted the way I handle pressure, overwhelm, decision-making, and the moments in life that used to throw me off balance.

Not because life stopped being life…
but because my relationship with Hashem became something steadier, closer, more present.

If you’re craving more clarity…
If you want a calmer mind and a more anchored heart…
If you want Bitachon to feel real and lived — not abstract…

➡️ Join the waitlist.
You’ll get early access + early bonuses.

➡️ And if you already know this is the work you want to do…
Pre-launch pricing is open until the course officially drops in December.

No hype.
No pressure.
Just an invitation.

Because Bitachon isn’t built in one dramatic moment.
It’s built one honest conversation with Hashem at a time.
And once you start… everything begins to change.